And it is a frontal attack, bold and ugly, going straight for my mind. Isn’t that the first target in all battles –the information center?
Driving down the road my mind is wrestling with negative thoughts and insecurities about myself. Age issues, ability to write, trying to find eloquence of speech, yet feeling like I walk around with one foot in my mouth at all times.
Fighting back, I recall positive things I have done, times when I gave a really good talk, and the day I rocked that new dress, or more wonderfully, spoke life into another person’s life. I have good times, yes! So why the battle?
As I push back the thoughts of inadequacy, the story of Adam in the garden comes to mind. God brought all of the animals to Adam to name, for him to observe that there was none like him in the garden. In the entire garden, there was no match found.
Fierce beast – great hair, great voice – Lion – No Match
Runs fast – strong worker – Horse – No Match
Tries to act like me – not like me – Monkey – No Match
These thoughts that wander through my mind, coming up to me as an old friend are disguised as truth, disguised as companions, as a match to live with me for life.
They wear musky smelling robes, tattered and decayed because they have been buried and yet they try to raise their ugly heads to partner with me.
Like Adam I look at them, evaluate, name and make a declaration.
You are a failure – LIE – No Match
I am more than a conquer in Christ Jesus.
You are not attractive – LIE– No Match
Created in God’s image – It is good.
You are not smart enough– LIE – No Match
Ask for wisdom and you will receive.
“No Match!” I yell over the sound of the radio.
“No Match!” I say with the authority of a warrior.
“No Match! These words of doubt and fear are no match for God or for me!” I laugh. So thankful that I am alone in the car. Anyone hearing would think I insane.
But isn’t that the point of insecurity – To isolate from others because we fear what they might think?
“No. Match.” I whisper quietly as His peace enters in.
“We are destroying speculations and every lofty thing raised up against the knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ” (2Corth. 10:5 NAS)
And my Father steps in more fully; He instructs me and I take captive my thoughts.
“For even if I should boast somewhat further about our authority, which the Lord gave for building you up and not for destroying you” (2 Corth. 10:8 NAS)
And the One and Only, that spoke all things into being, drives away doubt and darkness in me. The One who hovered over the waters as Spirit, the one that spoke all things into being and said, “it is Good”, that One bring His peace.
The creator of Peace, He is my match, I was, I am created to match with Him – and so are you.
Do you struggle with fears of inadequacy? Can I pray for you today? Would you leave your prayer request in the comments and so that I can begin praying for you?