Hitting the Brick Wall
Are there days when you just need to cry. Nothing is wrong, nothing out of the ordinary, but the need to cry is there. It is like hitting a brick wall that you cannot get past!
I do not fully understand why this happens. Perhaps it is hormones, or melancholy, or lack of sleep; or maybe the spirit is interceding with a mourning that I cannot understand. It is as if my spirit has been invited into intercessory prayer that my soul was not informed about.
Doc, (my husband) tells me that everyone goes through that from time to time. He reminds me of things to be thankful for. Air Conditioning, a bed, and healthy food…the list goes on. I begin to make my own list in my prayer time.
Yet a feeling of discontentment still stirs in me. What is this?
I pray the Word “ Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.” Matt 5:3.
I try walking the room, listening, reasoning, and pondering.
This is what happens sometimes when God places a mantel of intercession on you. It draws you closer to Christ. Because you do not know how to pray, because you do not know all that He knows. But what you do know is that something has been placed on you to intercede about.
I have been awake since four o’clock this morning with a strong feeling of discontentment, and frustration. Sometimes all I can do is sit quietly and whisper His name, “Jesus, Jesus.”
In His word this morning I read, “Go through, go through the gates; Clear the way for the people; Build up, build up the highway; Remove the stones, lift up a standard over the peoples”.
I don’t think I will ever understand why God calls us to intercede with His Spirit for others, but He does.
Does God ever burden you for others? Have you recognized the call as an intercessor on your life? Please comment about what God has done, I want to hear your stories.